Isolation

What do you do when you can't stand yourself anymore? When you're so uncomfortable in your own skin and being around people in general that you don't feel normal or yourself anymore. You get so sick and tired of yourself everyday and you grow tired of everyone around you....Optimism is usually my thing but I haven't been able to be lately. It's almost like I don't know anyone anymore. People keep changing and when you actually think you know someone, it turns out you didn't at all and they've just been putting up a front. It's very disappointing especially when you're close to the person. It's not a great feeling to be put down by people everyday in some way or another. It only pushes me away from them. There are so many people that think they're better than everyone else. I'm sick of talking to people when all they do is put me down for something that I say or how I say it, or they always have to be right about something and they look at you like your stupid. It's a real slap in the face if you ask me. They'll do things to strive for attention and try so hard for it, they do all these things that they criticize you for. This could be the reason for my self-esteem decrease but either way, I want to be different. I definitely do not want to be someone else or something I'm not, I just want a change. I want to be the person I truly am. I would just love to be isolated from everything because I know I'm much different when I'm all alone.