These blood red eyes don't see so good
But what's worse is if they could
Would I change my ways?
Wasted times and broken dreams
Violent colors so obscene
It's all I see these days

These guys are becoming really big so I thought I would give them some more recognition.

Living Life to the Fullest

Most people live life to the fullest or at least they try to. They don't think about death, they don't think about reality. It's all about the parties, getting wasted, getting high, having meaningless sex, trying anything and everything they can. These people are always trying to look for a "good time". The humorous aspect of this is these people always use the excuse that they do the things they do to live life to the fullest because "you never know when you're going to die". My belief on this is they're not thinking about death at all. They're only thinking about themselves and are too terrified to imagine death. People don't think about death enough in which I personally think they should. Sure, death is very depressing, confusing, and scary to imagine, but once you think about it enough, you start to grow accustomed to the idea. You start to take life more seriously and understand it more in which then, you will truly live life to the fullest. Yes, I know it's only a saying but I think it's more than that. I know people that say this and they know a lot of people but they don't have any real friends that they can sit down and talk about their feelings with or have someone to be there for them when they really need someone. They always have someone to hangout with but all they do is drink or get high. It's sad really and I feel blessed that I have some really close friends that have the same thought process as me and whatnot. These people may be having a fun time right now, they may be absolutely happy, but who are they going to have in the future? Death is not advertised enough in the world. I for one think about it everyday and I think it's almost a beautiful thing. I know if I didn't think about it, I'd be a different person. I don't fake it, I don't try to ignore my feelings, if I'm feeling it, I let it happen. I don't care how sad or scary death is to think about, I feel it makes you stronger...

Music for the Lonely

This new band came out recently called The Horrible Crowes. I was already familiar with the lead singer Brian Fallon, from the band The Gaslight Anthem, which if you get the chance you should check them out too, they're great. But this band, they're very dark, and very emotional. This is a great band to listen to if you're by yourself and especially at night. It provides a sense of comfort to loneliness. Listen and you may see what I mean. In the words of Brian Fallon, "This is an album to ache to".

Isolation

What do you do when you can't stand yourself anymore? When you're so uncomfortable in your own skin and being around people in general that you don't feel normal or yourself anymore. You get so sick and tired of yourself everyday and you grow tired of everyone around you....Optimism is usually my thing but I haven't been able to be lately. It's almost like I don't know anyone anymore. People keep changing and when you actually think you know someone, it turns out you didn't at all and they've just been putting up a front. It's very disappointing especially when you're close to the person. It's not a great feeling to be put down by people everyday in some way or another. It only pushes me away from them. There are so many people that think they're better than everyone else. I'm sick of talking to people when all they do is put me down for something that I say or how I say it, or they always have to be right about something and they look at you like your stupid. It's a real slap in the face if you ask me. They'll do things to strive for attention and try so hard for it, they do all these things that they criticize you for. This could be the reason for my self-esteem decrease but either way, I want to be different. I definitely do not want to be someone else or something I'm not, I just want a change. I want to be the person I truly am. I would just love to be isolated from everything because I know I'm much different when I'm all alone.